the wanderer

savouring life

2012-01-16T22:28:00.004-05:00

"life is not just about how many breaths you take,
it's about the moments that take your breath away"
--Will Smith's character, from the movie HITCH

january 2011 - finished my first book [painted the cover, too!]
feb 2011 - a month of processing deep self-LOve~
wrote about it in this blog.

i sought to heal some of my child wounds with prayer and painting

march 2011 - i gazed into the eyes of my LOve for the first time. it was cool to LOve mySelf so much alone [and it took awhile to really do selfLOve] only to meet-up with a partner who reflected that LOve back.

april 2011 - tax month, uggh! seriously! still meditating on abundance and surrender. i've got issues. i'd rather keep my money instead of mailing it away on the 15th. (what you need flows back to you, what you need flows back to you... )

may 2011 - launched my 7 weeks to BODyLOve wellness program!

200+ people logged on. [my dream is to reach 500+ now with its additions and re-launch!] i want to inspire as many as possible to LOve themselves HEALTHY!

june 2011 - this was a month of pure fun, sangria, comedy clubs, and flowers.

july 2011 [my b-day month] - i had a simple summer. water everywhere for a girl newly 43!!
there is no greater healer than the warm sun, a smile, and the wind misting water over your skin!

august 2011 - time stood still for reading and journaling from afternoon to dusk. meditation and prayer kept me whole.

september 2011 - biG awe! the great falls of niagara took my breath awaaaay.

october 2011 - began studying goddess leonie's business e-course [a b-day gift to myself from summer]! got inspired to plant more dreams. autumn does that to me every year.

accompanied my awesome, trumpet-playing LOve to newport, RI!

november 2011 - LOved teaching my little kiddies yoga and drama on saturdays. i got to play and say things i long to say as a grown-up. the kiddies just laughed and laughed. i am lucky i get to be a 10-year old once a week.
re-read marianne williamson's masterpiece, A RETURN TO LOVE after 13 years. found a copy at a lawn sale down the street. can't wait to re-read it again in 5 years!!
started writing my next free online workshop - this one on meditation!
december 2011 - reflected on my goals for january 2012- september 2012. considered what i needed to release in order to fulfill my dreams. blogged about it!

saw the magnificent grand canyon, as jo, my LOve affectionately calls GC. we prayed there, on a mountain peninsula, for 2012 to heal, nurture, and grow LOve in our lives.

may each moment of 2012 LOve YOU so... that it takes your breath away.

now

2012-01-03T15:27:00.001-05:00

i am wide
open
and deep with heartsongs
that promise release from the
past
and dis-ease.
i embody poWer from the greaT AutHor
of the sun, moon, and stars ALL
living [living]
in me as
liGht,
as the miracle,
as the pOetry of my NOW.

NOW
i choose to ✧
expand
focus
know
write
create
breathe
slowdown
LOve

NOW
i will receive ✧
comfort
appreciation
kindness
assistance
clients
money

NOW
i release ✧
➙the secret feelings of inferiority
➙my concept of money and earning
➙my past relationships
➙grudges {self-defense}
➙blame
➙paper clutter {i got a kindle to replace the TONS of books in my apt!}

NOW - i trade in WANTing for PRAYer instead.

A moment of happiness,

you and I sitting on the verandah,

apparently two, but one in soul, you and I.

We feel the flowing water of life here,

you and I, with the garden's beauty

and the birds singing.

The stars will be watching us,

and we will show them

what it is to be a thin crescent moon.

You and I unselfed, will be together,

indifferent to idle speculation, you and I.

The parrots of heaven will be cracking sugar

as we laugh together, you and I.

In one form upon this earth,

and in another form in a timeless sweet land.

--rumi

as the Light of this new year shines in you, what does it illuminate?

"what can you be?"

2011-12-03T21:11:00.002-05:00

the gift
i offer to you, my dearest LOves,
is a gift of true faiTh ::
that you might believe in LOve deeply AND purely.
accept, have fAiTH that the LOve inside will provide you with glorious
mIRacLEs
mIRacLES you can taste, that you want to share, that you
want others to experience
as you have experienced.
believe✧ believe ✧believe,
no matter what, that miRAcles are for YOU.
expect {with a LOving self} that all you want/need will show up--will take shape●
and want for LOve to exist inside of all that exists in your life experience.
merry
merry
merry

a sweet angel of TRutH, dr. wayne dyer.
just a man, yes---but SpiRit speaks here in this body.
enjoy my LOves--in your world, you are LOved!

i L♡ve sweet YOU.
see also--http://www.thewanderingpebble2.blogspot.com/
for LiGHt

2011-11-14T23:07:00.001-05:00

i rest
here

i can dream

Source: Pinterest

with eyes open

eyes closed

i rest
and dream deep

dream

use your imagination
10 days to LOSE YOUR MIND coming soon

the changing sky

2011-10-24T23:19:00.001-04:00

trust
that
you are healed.

there is beauty
here
for you.

feeling like an alchemist

2011-10-17T17:23:00.002-04:00

Like The Morning Breeze

Like the morning breeze, if you bring to the morning good deeds,

The rose of our desire will open and bloom.

Go forward, and make advances down this road of love;

In forward motion, the pain is great.

To beg at the door of the Winehouse is a wonderful alchemy.

If you practice this, soon you will be converting dust into gold.

O heart, if only once you experience the light of purity,

Like a laughing candle, you can abandon the life you live in your head.

But if you are still yearning for cheap wine and a beautiful face,

Don't go out looking for an enlightened job.

Hafiz, if you are listening to this good advice,

The road of Love and its enrichment are right around the curve.

--Hafiz, sufi poet

From: Drunk on the Wind of the Beloved

Translated by Thomas Rain Crowe

ooo-wee, the joy of snuggling with the poetry of Hafiz and RUMI {featured in other posts!} --poetry of divine LOve

{like LOve} niagara falls, one of the great wonders in nature
sept. 2011

2011-10-02T22:30:00.000-04:00

every
day

imagine your change

2011-09-26T21:21:00.002-04:00

"don't be afraid of change.
you think staying the same
means safety or predictability
in life.
not necessarily, mummie..."

"don't be afraid of change. use
your imagination to discover the
possibilities, then believe.
no regret, mummie,"
zen master pup,

mr. porter

evolution:: or :: the change of seasons

2011-09-19T15:07:00.002-04:00

i thought i could go on living
but today i know for sure
i am going to die
i am choosing to die
to the haunting illusions
i choose to die to the memory
that cages and claws and strangles
[almost secretly it strangles]
and die
to their words that formed my ~~words~~ thoughts,
words that taste of bitterness,
thoughts that cry with givingup~ness
today
i die
so that i can {finally}
cometolife
here, under this spotlight of surrender
i fling my arms open
like a super~star receiving applause and roses for her prayers
i am bowing
to this light i am bowing
with BIGthanks
that shines within
where sweetLiFe
is created
miraculous, mysteriously profound
this rebirth

they are free!

2011-09-12T16:05:00.008-04:00

LOvetruths
or
thinking-and-feeling stuff that can bless
[i call them LOvetruths]
and they're all free
::::
i trust the voice in my Soul

meditation is my mental massage

when LOve is pure: courageous and patient,
it can quell hate's flame

give a hand, a compliment or a smile,
and change the world [if even for a minute]

just believe, anyway {this is one of my favs!!}

thank you matters so frickn much

i am you, you are me

daily exercise will lighten your load

live as a dreamer, a pure imagineer-ist, unafraid to

plunge hardcore into your visions. live so fully you
don't fear death
no regret

do what you say you're gonna do,
and you'll trust yourself
more and more

prayer is a bridge. use it to cross. be safe.

instead of wasting, take less.

i appreciate you, from mE
thewanderer

this morning

2011-08-09T13:17:00.001-04:00

hey dearest LOvers of life. peekin' in on you/
i wish to whisper a gentle message that can keep you
cool through the remainder of this sweet summer.
my morning ritual ::
when i open my eyes

before my bano visit,
before the oatmeal in a wine glass breakfast,
before i qualify how i feel by the hours of sleep i need/got/ or didn't get
[i nap 5 days a week/ 20 minutes a shot--
no matter how much sleep i get at night!]
when i open my eyes
and
take my breath
i say
thank you
thank you
thank you

try this top of the day ritual,
if you would
accept your day
in the light of gratitude
thanks creates
LOve
LOve
creates joy
what else is there?

2011-06-27T14:30:00.001-04:00

summer sweetness
my favorite season/cuz my bday is in july!!!
[and yea, i'm one of those who can tolerate lots of heat]
and
i feel another creative project coming to bloom
so i may only post twice a month
{instead of once a week} through august-
so i can meditate

do yoga

smile in the sun
journal
pray
and create my new project

on meditation and present it to you
by autumn

{pix at bread and yoga in NYC}

please visit my website (http://www.aboutpebble.com/)
anytime
for 7 weeks of BODyLOve
the wellness program i am
giving to you for FRee!
click on LOvin' mE wellness studio!!

stay connected,
myLOves

summer playlist

2011-06-20T13:20:00.000-04:00

wisdom's melodies
my heart will play this summer ::

"True life is lived when tiny changes occur."
"If we admit that human life can be ruled by reason, then all possibility of life is destroyed."

— Leo Tolstoy

You suppose you are the trouble

But you are the cure
You suppose that you are the lock on the door
But you are the key that opens it
It's too bad that you want to be someone else
You don't see your own face, your own beauty
Yet, no face is more beautiful than yours.
---rumi

every thought is a dream
rushing by in a stream
bringing life to the kingdom of doing
---earth, wind, and fire

wings are for flying

2011-06-13T13:05:00.000-04:00

my two sides
sideone :: life-dancer
a fire of multi-colored flame
direct
with my speech and laughter
winged womanchild
magical nectar of hope and inspiration
dripping from her lips and
running through her being
living with her heart
fearlessly vulnerable
^flipside :: calculated
observer
hosting an inner dialogue of judgments
constricted woman
with wings pinned to the side of ~~her~~ myhead
tight/squeezing
fear-full
needlessly cautious
now
i see both sides of
myself
each vying to embody me
[i can choose]
one offers
life,
the other regret.

too serious

2011-06-06T13:39:00.005-04:00

i bit off a huge chunk of seriousness this weekend.
my level of intensity can [and usually does] bounce in the red when i'm teaching,
but i am usually aware of how many decibels of passion i'm emitting,
and i am pretty capable of directing my intensity in favor of being inspirational.
{which happens to be a great strength of mine--but there is always a shadow side to each strength/a light side to each shadow}
in a particular class last saturday, i my serious and intense wave
pummeled the precious heart of one of my students.
sure/conscious of the catastropy at the time, i scrambled to honor her before she left my class
[i found an indirect way to tell her that "yes" the way i conducted myself
sucked, and please forgive me for not really being present with you in the light you deserve].
still, i knew that my energy was so sucky on saturday because of a "deep serious-ness"
that was sucking on my system.
sometimes i have a problem being too serious,
a problem because it means i'm freaking inside ::
maybe i'm not doing things right
maybe i believe in my fears
too serious ~~can~~ does contaminate me and everyone in my influence

so
to shift it
i ~~meditate~~ am meditating in the spirit of
connection + oneness
let all i share flow --unobstructed by my own fears and pursuits--
and into the LOvespace
that entrusts
me to dwell within you/you within me

earthsoul

2011-05-31T14:35:00.000-04:00

upon you
i offer my hope
with reverence for your great
power of expression/
in my deep faith
i conceive of a balancing energy
that will flow to your sky
sun
water
rock
mud
i imagine that you will give to us, all who share your space,
in portion to what we need❍
without excess
i stand with you, upon you, with this vision,
also imagining that humanity do the same

mydear earth
❖

painting:: EARTHSOUL
acrylic, raffia, burlap

[a prayer for those around the world who have
endured EARTH'S weeping and wailing- and for all of us who are living with the repercussions of humanity's greed]

freely~vulnerable

2011-05-22T20:29:00.000-04:00

heartchild
so wild/willing
thewanderer
kept searching
seeking
hoping to find
a heart-space
in another
safe enough to join
and expand -
i,
a wildlysensitive girl,
cultivating a complex woman's mind,
and inhabiting a spiritual body of intuitive perception,
sent out a signal
with my breath and prayer and tear
[and waited and waited and waited and waited]
oh, let me [my dreams, my past, my temper, my seriousness,
my ease, my aches, my needs, my emptiness, my fullness]
be sheltered with support
be adored
let me be freelyvulnerable
be honored
be forgiven
be given
let me be tolerated
heard/answered
let me expand
and find
everyday

that LOve covers all

[for my fav joe]

like water

2011-05-16T14:03:00.004-04:00

Be like water making its way through cracks. Do not be assertive, but adjust to the object, and you shall find a way round or through it. If nothing within you stays rigid, outward things will disclose themselves. Empty your mind, be formless. Shapeless, like water. If you put water into a cup, it becomes the cup. You put water into a bottle and it becomes the bottle. You put it in a teapot it becomes the teapot. Now, water can flow or it can crash. Be water my friend.

~bruce lee [an inspired martial artist and philosopher]

TO meditate
is to breathe
with an inner presence of LOve
and balance
meditate-breathe
TRust that you are a FLowing part of nature's
spiritual intelligence
TRust
you will meet balance
and LOve in return
*do not take the shape of the world*
breathe-meditate
be formless,
like water
~michellebernard [mE:: a blogger,
mental massage-r, and sculptor of heartDreams]

The supreme good is like water,
which nourishes all things without trying.
It is content with the low places that people disdain.

Thus it is like the Tao.

In dwelling, live close to the ground.
In thinking, keep to the simple.
In conflict, be fair and generous.
In governing, don't try to control.
In family life, be completely present.
In work, do what you enjoy.
When you are content to be simply yourself
and don't compare or compete, everybody will respect you.
~lao tzu [a wise chinese master, who sings to my soul]

say/imagine/know

2011-05-09T12:47:00.000-04:00

i am hot and wild about the response to my free
7 weeks of BODyLOve wellness program ~
i created a 7-week guide to enhance YOUR workout
program
and i call it BODyLOve because
i simply don't believe that BODy-disgust motivates or
even sustains any positive,
LONG-term change.
when i train people and teach group exercise, i often
hear rants about how they are ::
sick and tired of having a "fat" stomach, tired of being tired.
they tell me they're unable to schedule workouts and
unable to control eating so they just give up.
well as a fitness professional, i say ::
if you really want to make a change -
i mean you REALLY want to make a change--
*fOCUS on LOve*
talk about/think about/know all the LOve-stuff ENERGY that exercisin' and good eatin'
does/will do/would do
for your BODy.
so say/imagine/know~
i LOve that exercise decreases my stress hormones!
i LOve that my abdominals are getting ripped.
i LOve knowing that my health is improving and i'm getting my diabetes under control.
i LOve that i am having regular bowel movements!
i LOve that when i eat consciously and entertain myself with a "cheat meal" once or twice a week, i don't ever have to die-t in my life!
i LOve the results of my cholesterol test!
LOve motivates. LOve creates life.
DISGUST saturates the spirit with defeatism.
trueLOve-stuff energy - for your BODy / inside!! and outside- permeates other dimensions of life.
so come
all are welcome
enter 7 weeks of BODyLOve with me,
baby

get to BODyLOvin'

2011-05-02T12:50:00.001-04:00

7 weeks of BODyLOve [online wellness guidance created by mE]
began may 1st,
but you can begin any ole day!
i am offering fitness jewels, healthy food suggestions,
and weekly mental boosts to enhance your wellness
program
all free to you
because--
i just want to share with you!!
so, right now, get ta clickin' http://www.aboutpebble.com/
then visit the LOvin' mE wellness studio
to see exactly what i'm talking about.
if you are a student in one of my classes,
i'ma-be watching you, baby...
if you are one of my virtual soulfriends,
i'll be sending you LOving vibes through my site.
during the 7 weeks of BODyLOve
i'ma-be talking to you via audio files
giving you meal suggestions
providing mini-workouts
you'll be gettin'
good health assistance
mantras for meditation
and
opportunities to connect with me so i can address your personal questions.

stop by the
LOvin' mE wellness studio
and get to BODyLOvin'
because health is wealth

being in LOve [you inside me]

2011-04-26T15:30:00.003-04:00

We live in succession, in division, in parts, in particles. Meantime within man is the soul of the whole; the wise silence; the universal beauty, to which every part and particle is equally related, the eternal ONE.
~Ralph Waldo Emerson
my first book, the 21-day LOve-fest, grew from my personal journey to know LOve.
my previous posts reveal my personal LOve challenges.
7 or so years ago i experienced a deeply heart-swallowing, soul-conquering,
mind-engulfing depression [ugh]
at that time, i spent days in an environment over-run by dark energy,
nights bound to a LOve[?]relationship that disfigured meheart, and time in between begging GOD for relief---
that didn't [seem to] come.
my faith in miracles, in hope, in goodness, in LOve evaporated after a few years of
begging god to... bless me? my eyes fell shut to the belief that there even existed a GOD
out there
{though maybe there was one, but the GOD wasn't servicing ~~grown-ups~~ pupils over the age of 35 anymore}
the giving up, letting go, the idea of GOD being out there
was the belief- force that triggered the shift in me.
i gave up begging---and merged with people in the "dark" environment- feeling i was them, they were me, and suddenly One--and in doing this, i felt a closeness, a singleness, a connection that eased the tension. i set myself free from the stormy relationship and imagined he would release me. this time, i didn't look back, except to visualize him moving forward into the LOve that would serve his intentions.
as far as the god part,
oh, i found the GOD
in all of my decisions
to merge, to connect with others instead of judge and remain separate,
to wish the same LOve for someone as i wish for myself, even for someone who hurt me.
and i am still seeking GOD [without begging]--now in shamanism, in buddhism, in hinduism, in my friends, in jesus' teachings, in rumi, in music, in poetry, in the park, at the beach, in my puppy, in dance, in the mirror, in your words...
and yes, i know
GOD exists
as patient silence,
in honoring connection,
in deferring to LOve
in the appreciation of everything
inside

your task is not to seek for LOve, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it
~RUMI

being in LOve {single/Lady}

2011-04-18T14:34:00.001-04:00

holy moly
LOve has been super sizin' in me since my last post.
my book, the 21-day LOve-fest,
was partially inspired by my personal
LOve challenges
i mentioned the four biggie-challenges 2 weeks ago
[examined one of them last week]
another LOve challenge ☞the long-ass time {years, baby...}that i've been a single/lady
dating and dating and dating
even dating my ex!!!
but not finding a "one" to expand with
kinda made me feel a bit...
pissed/fractured/incomplete ☹
understand my peeps, i did meet some men who were truly heart-worthy and LOveable,
though not necessarily available to expand LOve together in the way that i
was expanding LOve and wholeness in mySelf
☺and yet
i never denied mySelf, my hope, my vision to, once again, meet someone who could agree to experience
a dual/LOve partnership
{do you sense a climax in this post?}
till recently [mi corazon]

❀i met one
and he is present in the experience of being LOve✓
and he is present in my expression of mE and the LOve i have for mySelf ✓
as i am present with him and the LOve for himSelf✓
~y more~
the years spent wandering in SingleSpace
gifted me with an opportunity to prove the bloody cliche`
correcto :: LOving yourSelf is MOST important and FIRST important
i have [finally] found a partner and i found mySelf
and
today♥
they're both filled withLOve
[ no, he's not latino. i use spanish sometimes, because i LOve the language!]

being in LOve [in action]

2011-04-11T13:56:00.002-04:00

my my my goodness - being in LOve...
to be frank, i remember, and at times, long for the days of my youth,
not because of anything relating to the external attributes young people may possess
like preferred body weight and shape, plump skin, or hair without silver highlights. Nah.
i remember how resilient and unaffected i was by
life's challenges. though i've always been a thinker ready to pop, maybe i was a bit unconscious, that's why i believed=
things would work themselves out + i'd be insulated from the turbulence of a crashing spiritual let-down.
well, with the sophisication of age, experience, and awareness {the thinker popped} my emotional capability to effortlessly rebound from LOve challenges greatly
diminshed over the past 7 years. i have had to seek and learn how to rebound, re-set,
and re-LOve my life / my Self and ~~i did it~~ i'm doing it
with the practice of conscious-ness:
courage {to feel, give, and let go!},
perception and visualization,
gratitude
last week i presented my first book: the 21-day LOve-fest {YAY!!} and how the processes and behaviors i suggest in my book evolved from facing my very personal LOve challenges
one of which was [ is ]
~working through, dealing with, and learning from an emotionally-parched
parent/ child relationship [mE, the child]
i have always been quirky / dreamy with a fantasticly decorative heart/mind.
to my already colorful, emotional, starry-souled Self was also added the desire to penetrate
life with courage and wonder. my wanderer spirit experienced
much jugdment and little acknowledgement from touch as a child
{then and now}
7 years ago, i sought to address this rejection with the parent{s}.
though i could expound upon the means by which i dealt with the parents
and how they responded over the last 7 years to my efforts,
i'd much rather share my personal shift:
i took space to be with just mE.
in this space, i looked at and embraced my color and wonder and quirks. because of this space
i was able to listen ONLY to my inner voice, which is NOT harshly judgmental of mySelf.
i needed this distance, removal from the perceived source of my discontentment,
to see the LOve INSIDE.
~my LOve for mE~
being in unconditionalLOve with mE
is imperative to generate the compassion enough to perceive and visualize forgiveness outside of mE!!!
i am - right now - visualizing LOve and connectedness
and acceptance for my parent/child union. i am - right now -
expecting that as i cultivate this LOve in vision, in feeling- even as it's in secret-
it will re-shape and harvest what my heart deeply intends for both of us:
conscious fluidity of unconditionalLOve

being in LOve

2011-04-04T13:19:00.002-04:00

yay! i finished my first book [see it above and order
at lulu.com / just click!]
it provides real-life, every day activities/ behaviors we can
choose
that allow the vibration of LOve to flow
[outward and inward]
the message in my book grew out of very!!! personal LOve challenges
[that are definitely not apparent from just looking at me]:
~i wanted to deal with a child [mE, the 42 year-old child]/parent relationship
~i needed to look at my recurring feelings of separation
~i had been Single for... ~~ever~~ too long
~depression attacked and suppressed me after i'd engaged in a dark spiritual environment

yes, i probably was pollyanna before these above LOve challenges squeezed mE in.
i used to smile for no reason--in fact, folks would ask me "what's wrong?" because i smiled so much.
i began measuring and witholding my smiles 7 years ago. i partnered with cynicism because I couldn't feel my Self or any real LOve flowing

~ until recently.
i finished the book at the end of last year [2010],
and thanks to it, 2010 was the beginning of being in LOve
with mE and life again.
i'd sure like to share my LOve challenges with you over the next weeks of posts.
i trust you
with my feelings,
as i believe
you will read and understand -
for we are probably more alike [than different] anyway
***you can visit http://www.lulu.com/spotlight/aboutpebble for my book and other inspirational materials i have created!

bloomed

2011-03-28T15:30:00.003-04:00

ah, to have the faith of a flower~
to be ever so
gentle
with myself
and to trust that i am
supported by
breath
and
Lightand
my faith
i
open to receive great Light
like when the silent petals of a flower
attentively peel open so as to
give space for another petal to open
and then another
the faith~fullflower exposes its vibrant

dimensionality
graciously
presenting itself
bloomed

{like paradise on a stem}
the Great Light
can continue to nourish
the bloomedflower,
likewise

the bloom can become a great source of nourishment

photos from orchids on broadway exhibit @ bronx botanical gardens

wonder-fULL

2011-03-14T15:17:00.000-04:00

Die! die!

Die in this love!

If you die in this love

your soul will be renewed

Die! die!

Don't fear the death

of that which is unknown

If you die to the temporal

you will become timeless

Die! die!

Cut off those chains

that hold you prisoner

to the world of attachment

Die! die!

Die to the deathless

and you will be eternal

Die! die!

And come out of this cloud

When you leave the cloud

you will be the effulgent moon

Die! die!

Die to the din and the noise

of mundane concerns

In the silence of love

you will find the spark of life

dying to LOve

RUMI

♡painting~16X20 acrylic + raffia + the word "wonder"

nourishing insanity

2011-03-07T11:44:00.047-05:00

for sure the seasons are shifting here on the east coast.
i can feel winter turn to spring in my body each year,
because i get a bit more drowsy while at the same time
feeling more expectant from the busy-ness in my creative life.
■the close of the winter hibernation is now■
like the earth that rocks
weeps
whistles
and thaws to create another season,
new buds
{beliefs i'd like to fertilize}
surface and
sprout
within
me
☼for mental, emotional, and physical strength

❍find time to listen to silence

☼maintain enthusiasm for the connections i'm able to make with my Self, others, and my art ☞DAILY

☼daydream about the future + soak up the present ☞ believe in destiny

i have wished i didn't think so much/ contemplate so much stuff i experience.
i have wished i could just wonder less about life, my Self/ roam within LESS- just be non-attached to how i feel {so much!} None of that wishing has worked
because i am drunk
with this wonder
and drawn to the music of life
experience.
Under this trance, i surrender.

The mystic dances in the sun,
hearing music others don't.
'Insanity,' they say, those others.
If so, it's a very gentle,
nourishing sort.
Rumi

thanks goddess leonie

2011-02-27T23:38:00.006-05:00

my student would rehearse
this beautiful song in my classroom
when i was a high school drama teacher in the bronx/
i knew she vibrated
inside each lyric
with hope~
{as did i}
she
and this song
still speak to me
[thanks for reminding me, goddess leonie click]
and so
with infinite hope
this is
dedicated to
tatiana, my student, wherever you are
[me],
and you,
too!
may LOve {in its many forms}
find you
receptive

india arie singing ready for love. from her first album
{pause my harmony player on the sidebar to play this video!}
[ +i have nothing to do with that pop-up add! it goes
away in 5 seconds...]

in winter style

2011-02-21T15:12:00.009-05:00

last week
my weblog buddie, LAURA X
click her name to see her LOvely blog!
gave thewanderer {along with 5 other blogs}
a stylish blog award
[sweetest thanks, LX]

in winter style
i feel like
resting
slowing
knowing
and being with
mE
and you
through
introspection
and soulfulconnections
i share you with you
in winter style
a few morsels to hibernate with

for your body
kris carr's 15diet tips {LOving #12 and 13!!}

the LOve list at crazySexyLife website click here, darling

for your heart click here, sweet!
la dolce vita weblog's february pages or click here
{i say to this link, "yes! thanks amazing ditto!"}

for your mind click here, babe
the hay house radio program/ developed by the author of
YOU CAn heaL your LIfe, louise hay
[i listen ALL the time]

for your soul click here
explore your spiritual life oR click here, myLOve [two links]
spirit :: minus religious dogma, freebird!

picture from caterina's
february pages click, sweetie
click it to visit her beauty-full blog!!

i'm-a be takin' a happy pill

2011-02-14T13:03:00.002-05:00

[i'm-a needin' a happy pill prescription]
all you need is LOve
no really
LOve is all you need
~circulate appreciation~

to feel connected + whole +
happy
we need opportunities to flow {giVe} + {reCeiVe}
LOve
[i'm-a needin' to flow some hot green LOve consciously / how 'bout you?]
so,
if you would
{for the next 7 days}
let someone know how
much you appreciate
their connection to your life.
{every day for a week}

flow

[painting: hernature-acrylic+paperoncanvas/
pebblewear clay jewelry: close-up of neckwear with green glass center]
~green is the 4th chakra color- the heart~

me so happy you connected with me,today. thewanderer

find the rainbow

2011-02-07T12:41:00.001-05:00

creative ways to explore the vibration
of happiness {movies and a book iLOve...
think you will, too, sweet u}
AUGUST RUSH
power of intuition+self confidence=
magnetizing LOve

PHENOMENON
human connection
surrender
human potential

SIMON BIRCH
purpose

unconditional LOve

the 21-day LOvefest BOOK by ME! michellebernard {my first book!!! click}
conscious ways to experience LOve
active meditation

these above selections are not your airy-fairy variety. their stories incorporate
the light and the dark of life
yet
show how to find a rainbow
beyond it all.
happiness wants you as much as you want it
thanks for connecting. it makes me happy.

pace and the city

2011-01-31T12:55:00.002-05:00

some days
the pace of living
set by this city [NYC]
makes me yearn for a gentler way to light my fire
like today
i could spark mad-fierce illumination with just
stones
rocks
trees
bodies
water
words
dreams

i dream ::

i live near a waterfall
i inhabit this house

{pix snatched from helena post-creatrix/ blog!}

i dream ::
i own a two-room used bookstore
with complimentary tea and cookies
book clubs
poetry clubs
for writers and readers
[and the second room]
space for me to teach yoga
and meditation
because
some days
i realize i might be happier with less

pack a smile

2011-01-24T16:30:00.002-05:00

because there are so many things
a smile can do~
stretch a frown out of shape
accept an apology
welcome a pet
welcome a hug
disarm a road-rager
bring a surprise
cool a temper
welcome surrender
reveal your sparkling braces
balance blood pressure
model new lipstick
exaggerate dimples
start a day
end a day
make a booboo heal faster
help
liberate other smiles

can you add to the list?

flow

2011-01-17T13:23:00.001-05:00

find a moment for
silence
today
to
just be
sit/ walk/ rest
[sssh]
ask no question
seek no solution
just be
connected
to
the flow of the mystical
energy/Spirit
of wholeness/harmony/ grace/freedom
know that this energy/Spirit is
{also} you
let it flow[as breath]
until you really, really, really, really,
really, really know
In the attitude of silence the soul finds the path in a clearer light, and what is elusive and deceptive resolves itself into crystal clearness.

~ mahatma gandhi

With this faith, we will be able to hew out of the mountain of despair a stone of hope.
~ dr. martin luther king, jr.

http://www.thewanderingpebble2.blogspot.com/

the question

2011-01-10T13:44:00.005-05:00

what are your plans for 2011?
you may recall last week's post {scroll down and check it out}
we're all goin' to town on those resolutions/ newyear plans and all that jazz
but
your plans don't necessarily determine what can happen for you--
your beliefs do
~ your belief about what has happened in your past and how it defines and determines who you are now
~ your belief about whether the universe or God/GoddessSpirit is capable of honoring you
~ your belief about what you feel you deserve based on what you've done, said, others have said
these beliefs
determine how and what life presents to you
and how do you know what your beliefs are? well, they are playing in your mind.
they play as pictures, thoughts, mantras {repetitive personal credos}
they whirl within your mind like magic dust
eventually taking the form of matter/life experiences
truths
what you believe is what is TRUE {4 you}
and if your beliefs contradict your plans
well then, get ready for another year of oops! try again
so the question is not, what are your plans for this new year
but

what are your beliefs about what is POSSIBLE for you to experience this year?

i believe we can empower our beliefs {this year!}
of course,
~ we can never change past events/ experiences that have informed us
~ we can not change what we've already said, done, heard about or witnessed
however
we can empower our perception and BELIEF
in the powerful energy of this universe / GoddessGodSpirit {not any specific religion}
which is an energy of harmony, beauty, wholeness, grace,
and unconditional LOve
{Love that is unconditional is the most profound,
the most transformative kind to return the Soul to wholeness}
so
what are your 2011 newyear beliefs?
please share or just reflect. i am grateful for you.

http://www.thewanderingpebble2.blogspot.com/

{like meditation}

2011-01-03T19:46:00.003-05:00

the greatest christmas gift i got this year
was being able to
sleep-in till 8:30
almost every day for a week and a half
if i remember correctly
8:30

like you
i awoke this morning with a list
of things to better
my life
my self
@ 8:30

work's slow for two more weeks
i always get a little work-pause in january
and september
time to breed creativity
{though i have moments of cross-eyed stress
about money during the pause--i'm an artist, remember}

this month's work-pause
is soooo dedicated to sparking those resolutions we all
imbibed on dec 31st

can i suggest something?
i recommend you don't tell anyone what any of them are
yes, keep your resolutions to yourself
let them take root inside of you
embed them into your soul
give them to your heart
let their energy transform you
and once you have grown the wings
to embody them
everyone will get to see what they are

anyway

a couple a'days of full-ness

2010-12-13T13:33:00.008-05:00

when i hear people say "oh, didn't the year just fly by" or "where did the time go?", i usually differ in opinion. time isn't flying. i think we might be flying, blurring ourselves and our liVes, and not fully participating in the "moment" with presence.
i'ma be on a 12-day expansion of consciousness journey. i do these things [journeys] to slow down time, to be present, to notice and experience liVing in a way that is both personal and inter-connected.

here is my layout for the 12-day journey in expansion ::
{i start tomorrow--join me!}
**on christmas day, dec 25th, i added some of the pictures of my 12 days of fullness

day 1} tuesday dec/14th :: LOve NOW day--start a scrapbook :: ALL i've LOved in 2010 [add to it daily]

day 2} wed dec/15 :: vision day--pray for economic abundance {for those in need! including me! [need is relative]} and enlightened social relations in this country AND the world. my prayer is for happiness:: that we learn to desire less/notice the treasures we have.

day 3} thurs dec/16 :: de-clutter day--i'm getting rid of 5 things in my house!

day 4} fri dec/17 :: give a compliment day, no computer day [only texting. i have an antiquated phone, so it still qualifies as a "no computer day"]

day 5} sat dec/18 :: quiet day--one hour of silence

day 6} sun dec/19 :: "getdown" day---get grounded day-i'm gonna hug a tree/ sit on the grass

day 7} mon dec 20 :: enough already day--i plan to address an area of procrastination. i will do something i've put off.

day 8} tuesday 21 :: conscious creation day--experience a full day of art

day 9} wed dec 22 :: expand my vision day--add to my scrapbook a section for my visions of expansion in 2011!

day 10} thurs dec 23 :: listen within day--walking meditation and prayer!!

day 11} fri dec 24 :: be a photographer day--carry my camera and photograph every thing i see that moves me {i saw the city a whole new way with mother bear in town. i never hang at bryant park or times square, but here we are! loved it.}

day 12} sat dec 25 :: be a creative cook day [this is really terrifying, because i'm not a confident chef-person. it's not my thing. but it will be on this day.]

i will post every few days to share my 12 days of expansion with you. join me on the journey, my peeps. post your experiences in the comments. i'd LOve to hear from you.
enjoy these weeks of fullness.

holiday pebblewear

2010-12-10T06:32:00.001-05:00

i'ma be showin' and sellin' pebblewear this friday and saturday!

friday @ supermud pottery {my studio} @ 105th and broadway-upstairs from 5-8:30.

saturday @ Bread and Yoga @207th and broadway from 2-9pm.

and i'ma be at the audubon

partnership {@w. 207th and post}

this saturday, dec 18 from 5-8pm

if you're in nyc, smile by, my peeps...

my treasure chest

2010-12-05T23:44:00.008-05:00

can i share a few new-found treasures with you?
i found a movie ::
For Colored Girls...
full title of the original stage play or, as it was called, "choreopoem" {it's an abstract play/dance/poem}

:: for colored girls who considered suicide/when the rainbow is enuf
playwright, ntozake shange {pronounced N-toe-zake like sake, the rice wine}
such de'light to see a film adapted from a written work
done with integrity and ingenuity
female performances
superb {heavy use of expression} but i mean it
absolutely superb
script is rich, revealing the honesty of the human condition/
one can identify with aspects of each woman in the rainbow.
should you read the play before you see the film?
you'll be de'lighted by this artistic experience in either order

i found a website ::
treekaya {click on the daily opportunity
http://treekaya.wordpress.com/daily-challenge/monday/
monday is no waste day
this organization, out of california, offers insight into
conscious living, health, and culture

i found a book ::
the moses code
by james f. twyman
this little easy-read book serves a POWerful
injection of faith serum.
books like this {small/BIG} need to be read in doses
giving time for meditation and contemplation
i was at first turned off by the title, which i didn't fully state above
{the moses code, the most powerful manifestation tool in the history of the world}
whenever i see something boasting like that, i roll my eyes.
another gimmick for getting stuff.
i only read this book because dr. wayne dyer recommended it last week.
no gimmick here.
faith in possibility
clarity of vision
awareness of your connection to others
SOUL awareness
are a few of the de'lightful treasures you will find in this reading experience.

what's in your treasure chest these days? have you found a film,
website, and/or book you can recommend? please share. gracias.

goin' out of my head

2010-11-29T11:04:00.003-05:00

i think i'm goin' out of my head
here
no lessons, no formal training
just desire to
see how it feels to
speak

without sound

expansion

untitled

whirl
{part of a series of 3}

another four-letter word :: give

2010-11-22T16:27:00.008-05:00

i just happened to be home at 4 o'clock last friday for
oprah's favorite things.
i couldn't contain my reaction as she kept unwrapping and
giving
things away.
even though i {obviously} didn't receive any of it,
my serotonin levels soared and
started me cryin' from the rush of
joy
i did receive.

a spiritual paradox ::
hold on to nothing
give
and receive everything

i am
new {again}to this concept and heart-moved to practice it.
understand friends,
i am not declaring that i'm gonna give away my hopes, dreams, apartment, my cowboy boots, or my next paycheck.
i am moved to shift my energy / perspective/ behavior
can we contemplate together?
and give up
HoLDiNG
CluTChing
sQUeeZing
our stuff
so TIGHTly

let's give ourselves
a break from
waNTing so desperating
to HAve what we wAnt.
instead
let's give something
{thAt we, perhaps, WANT}
away

a way to GIVE :: i found http://www.oxfamamericaunwrapped.com/home.php {click to visit}
on my beloved goddess leonie's website
http://www.goddessguidebook.com/page/2/

what goes, comes back. come back.
we never left each other. ---rumi

now

2010-11-15T14:03:00.005-05:00

when i was in high school and undergrad i was a pretty well-developed partygirl
now
i'm quite a nerd. and i like it this way.

when i was in my early twenties i was a hyper-focused,
singing ego-maniac
now
i'm thrilled to teach and inspire children and grown-upinner-children to
express their song. and i so much like it this way.

during what they call the formative years {0-17}
i experienced a great longing to connect with and understand mySelf
culturally
as i was socialized in a culture different than my own.
now
after living all around this country [and for a short-time outside the US]
and immersing mySelf in
every cultural opportunity i could find,
i embrace my Self and all its influences from each of the cultures i've engaged.
and i like it this way.
to paraphrase dr. wayne dyer ::
i'm not better than anyone else,
but i am better than i used to be

still in my formative years {age 42}
i'm grateful for the inner shifts that are happening right
now
i dig it this way.

everything comes together
when we get there

pebblewear neckwear synthesize :: handcarvedclayneckwearwithwireclaymadebeadcrystaland realrockpebble!
http://www.thewanderingpebble2.blogspot.com/

a rockin' interlude

2010-11-12T19:46:00.006-05:00

pebblewear news and other rockin' good stuff...

nancy, you remember nancy from the meet nancy post 2 weeks ago {scroll down}
anyway
nancy came to see me at my showing of pebblewear last week. what a funky-kool gal.
she came dressed in her artist/double-cuffed jeans w/boots, photographer's camera and her own handknitted, floor-length tassled scarf around her neck--groovy seeker/artist/diva/ heart-centered woman
makes me wanna holla
said i would LOve sedona, have you been to sedona?
ARIZONA
mountains have been singing to me and, well, i'm just a nyc transplant
-though i LOve nyc, i LOve mountains, too, and dirt and the spirit of the mountain keepers...
where was i?
she posted our second meeting {nancy's blog}
hope for many more

oh, i got mentioned, well actually pebblewear was featured in the

LUNDI BLEU etsy treasury
with my creation INVITATION-into the bleu {click}
i'm mashed in gratitude
i'ma-be posting again on monday. just wanted to update TOday.
BTW, thanks for hanging with me on this weblog paradise. i LOve this medium.
smooches on your cheek.

and last reminder**my art show this sunday, nov 14 from 11-5pm
@ 116 pinehurst av and 183rd in the LOUNGE of the hudson view gardens
i'll be the one smiling standing near all the wearable rock jewels
TTYL

full expression

2010-11-05T13:40:00.004-04:00

this is the summer 2010 issue of New York Runner magazine and if you squint, you can read my interview. i am commenting on how yoga -style stretching can benefit runners. balance can stave off burnout/ injury. i am a advocate and example of the importance of balance in one's expression of self. in this article i cheer the advantages of moving-meditation, conscious breathing during total-body multi-directional movement, and how it enhances the body/breath awareness lending to the prevention of running injuries. though i wasn't able to elaborate in this brief article, i suggest that yin and yang activities be incorporated in one's physical and daily-life expression. for example :: i practice and teach an extremely slow-moving, intensely meditative, long-held-posture yoga style [that inspires sighs and sweet moans] i call moving-meditation. i fall into trance and guide students into the deep mystery of body and Self. i breathe aloud. my voice is soft and nurturing.
but baby in contrast, i also lift weights like a meat-head. i appreciate a slamming soundtrack with booming bass when i pump iron. i dig a dimly-lit boxing class with the instructor screaming "4-more, GiRL! NOW!", and that's the way i teach my group fitness classes. this physical yin/yang expression helps me find my center, live in the middle, express my fire and my cool mOOn so i can flow evenly without experiencing burnout or becoming frozen by retreating too deeply into the cool bleu.
how do you find balance? where is your fire? what keeps you cool and calm?

this post :: to movers everywhere and the runners of the new york city marathon november 7, 2010 :: sweet success

meet nancy

2010-11-01T13:10:00.003-04:00

nancy ricci made these for me. who is nancy ricci?

she was a perfect stranger 2-weeks ago
when she spotted me on the uptown train.

first, we exchanged smiles

warmth, instant

connected-ness.

we exchanged cards.

http://www.gettingpurlywithit.com/

you see, my fav gloves--fingerless mitts

{...i wear as often as i wear my glasses}

caught her eye.

nancy passionately lusts for yarn/ she told me she knitted fingerless gloves and more.

within a few hours i got this email that she wished to send me a gift:

hand-knitted fingerless partners for me and

my smile.

big kindness. amazing.

and
here they are. she sent two pairs {and i've been wearing them every day--even during the heatwave we had last week/ because i'm so grateful, and i LOve them, and they were made and sent with LOve}

she received a gratitude gift of pebblewear jewels/ from mE.
nancy and i shared our creativity and found that we had a few other energies in common like both having lived in various cities prior to nyc and even more curiously, living in almost the exact same apartment at one time.

you know, nancy said she was gifting mE for my smiling energy during a dull ride on a nyc subway train. i graciously shout-out my acknowledgement to this star of a woman-soulful knitter and creative be-ing who is contributing a kind-ness vibration beyond what she may realize.

meet nancy: http://www.gettingpurlywithit.com/

my hands in clay again

2010-10-27T13:48:00.007-04:00

some new
pebblewear

[my fav]
i call this earwear the doors
i adore the imagery of doorways

more earwear: untitled, bleu glass eyes in the bottom dimple

more earwear :: untitled, like tree bark with elegance
nevergone: green neckwear
what goes comes back. come back.
we never left each other. ---rumi
come see me {AND PEBBLEWEAR JEWELS}
@the 12th annual ART SHOW at the Hudson View Gardens
[116 pinehurst ave. manhattan. at 183rd street in the lounge]
sunday, november 7th 11-5p
sunday, november 14th 11-5p
opening reception SATURDAY, NOV 6th 6-9pm
10% of pebblewear sales, between now and june 2011, will be donated to BREAD and YOGA to sponsor a child's participation in the summer yoga+art+cooking program. i, of course, coordinate the yoga part with two other beautiful butterflies facilitating art+cooking. check out www.breadandyoga.com -- your purchase pays LOve forward. i'ma be grateful, too {M}

effort-less effort {or} bringing my yoga to life

2010-10-25T14:30:00.006-04:00

i have favorite words- words
that just feel so volumptuous and sensual and give such pleasure to say, explore, embrace-
embody.
my word in this timeless now is:
expansion
just say it: expansion expansion
my lifeprocess gets enveloped into my yoga sadhana (spiritual study) and my
students and i benefit::
4example
when i teach triangle pose (trikonasana), i emphasis expansion/

focusing on the feeling-sensations and the moving of energy in each physical limb and within -
{1} i first instruct students to step out and form a comfortable base, angle the feet in the direction of movement, stretch the arms at shoulder height, and gaze straight ahead [or close the eyes]. that's it. we stand there until we're not even aware of how many breaths have passed-just feeling/ breathing.
{2} in this "justfeeling", we notice how the legs extend gently out from the open hips, we feel the roots of the heels and toes draw into the earth, the shoulders relax out away from the ears and liberate heart-energy to flow across the front and back-body, into the fingers, into infinity; the crown of the head opens with light while thinking becomes inferior to de'light.
{3} we gently flow into the posture, triangle, breathing this awareness of our energy expanding in all directions evenly. while in the pose, we reflect on this expansion and the energy continues as we breath back up to standing.
{4} so---even if we have done the triangle pose a zillion times before, it is new again, it is NOW again. Conscious expansion, letting your energy move out from your center of being and throughout the form, creates internal freedom+
inspires an indescribable comfort that must be experienced to know.

"When harmony and integration begin through practice in our inner layers of being, there is immediately a beginning to harmony and integration with the world we live in." --B.K.S. Iyengar, renowned yoga master

learn more about my yoga classes

how would you like to experience expansion in your life?
leave a comment, por favor.

4-letter word

2010-10-18T14:46:00.010-04:00

i choose to
contemplate
the four-letter word

seek
as i choose what to seek
{de'light, companionship, good health, harmony}
when i tune into myself,
it is such
that i will
find [an F-word i LOve]

i am contemplating
a life
shaped in LOve/
not in fear [the unpleasant F-bomb]
if i join these two imaginings {LOve+fear}
i will get
the unfortunate result of a life that
feels only
half-full
imagine only LOve

i contemplate the word (s)
i use to express
what i knowwithin/ what i believewithin.
my word
has power enough to design
paradise/a life full-full of colorful miracles growing free
or
cause an inner drought leaving a dull,
parched landscape of need and despair
i choose to speak out
for paradise
here

what four-letter word (s) are you contemplating, my sweet friend? can we expand together and see paradise, LOve, and harmony for those who are having a hard time seeing, thinking, and believing these de'lights?

One of the important principles I live by is the idea that you have to contemplate yourself as surrounded by the conditions you intend to produce.
Dr. Wayne Dyer

If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.

Dr. Wayne Dyer

into bliss

2010-10-11T16:41:00.009-04:00

my word for NOw is
bliss
4 {of my} portals into bliss ::

{1}   a kiss
harmony
lip-to-lip composition
merging with another Soul as if singing one language/
tasting and smelling each other's scents
and scents combining
no beginning and no end/
breathing into
the kiss
lifts the bodies into a rocking,
delightful ebb and flow
between two
bliss

{2}   listening to a five-year-old sing
chaneling that little voice
with big-ness
using pretend words when needed
without apology/
committed
to their interpretation of the song
bliss

{3}   forgiveness
recognizing there is a divine order of experiences/
honoring the light and dark of them all
and choosing to let LOve be
the template for liFe
and so
**finally telling my father that i absolve him from all
my punishment for deeplyhurting me/
for leaving me very young
and in that instant, i recreated him/ him me
as
both
our hearts and WORDS accepted the re-birth
bliss

{4}   letting water cover me on all sides
sitting in water
the pool, bathtub, ocean,
even feet dangling over the boat into a pond/
i re-cognize
water
being submerged in the substance that is also within me
Me surrounded by mE
comfort, calm
bliss

i invite you to share your portals to bliss, please, with mE

newest creation

2010-10-04T13:41:00.005-04:00

it gives me such LOving pleasure to share my meditation cds
with you
here is my newest creation:
dayandnight mediationCD {energy to clarify the presence of contentment within}(clickTHEtitle for info)

i LOve this one/
dayandnight
soooo much. it's got a morning med.,
2 bedtime meditations, LOvetruths [which are like affirmations/ i prefer to call them TRUTHS] and LOvepoems inspired by RUMI

and here is: yogamovesme {gentle yoga moves with yoganidra and guided seated meditation} (clickTitle)

my creations are... well... atypical in style
as meditations go.
though you will find a variety of musical styles on each CD,
I TYPICALLY compose trance-inducing, rockin' rhythms
and sprinkle in a few mellow musical movements here and there.
some of the recordings suggest specific bodymovement, but
generally you can
drive, walk around the block,
cook, bathe,
clean the house
whatever
and listen
to receive the benefits from the energy in each piece.
my Soul has opened to create these for you {and for me}

i am always the student of ALL that is taught through me.
CDs @ www.pebblewear.homestead.com/andmore.html

from inside

2010-09-28T00:36:00.001-04:00

my word for NOW is
courage

taming the lion
from inside the cage
staring down fear's salivating snarl
unmoved.

a heart,
steeped in the devotion
to the Soul's truth,
as armor

The cave you fear to enter holds the treasure you seek.
– Joseph Campbell
what is your thought, your word? please share.

found it!

2010-09-20T13:42:00.001-04:00

i'm an avid self-help book reader
hoarder
(but with my library card i've tempered my addiction
to self-help book groupie)
i claim it
and recently i've been fiending for a book to
deliver guidance in a new way
with language that
could directly HELp ME eclipse some mountains

FouND iT!
and i want to share it with YoU

so i won't be redundant and repeat the title, but
gay hendricks, a business and LOve/relationship consultant,
(i know that may seem like a weird combo)
outlines why WE may find it deeply challenging to take the leap
toward what he names: our zone of genius,
and gives practical tools that conquer the fears to make leaping
possible
{this is a RIghT on TiMe BOok}
i hammered through it yesterday --
smiling, visualizing, ahhHa-ing, understanding --
and with only a/3rd of it left to read,
i can surely say:
FINd this BooK

here's some HELp
http://www.thebigleap.net/

tell me what you think about it? and i hate to sound like a junkie,
but can you recommend a read to me?
sweet peace

connect/join/unite :: yoga

2010-09-13T13:25:00.005-04:00

i know autumn (isn't that a beautiful word/ autumn?) is coming because i've been wearing my cowboy hat
and boots on and off for a week now. the summer break is near its end
and thought bubbles are forming over my head
my dreams gently hovering, asking for my attention.
one reason for starting this blog was to log
my thoughts and find kindred soulmates to connect with/
to join/ and create a virtual union with like-hearted spirits
yoga
another reason : : i recognize the power in
words/ communication
this weblog is a vehicle for me let YOU in on
the communication i have with
my own soul
which can be scary as it exposes my vulnerabilities out-LOUD
i mean think of it? i could choose to hide in a leatherbound journal beside my bed,
but i choose to reveal to you, instead...

and so i share my dream with you and
with me.
i see myself writing self-LOve inspiration e-courses and leading workshops
along the east coast (like SARK does along the westcoast) and in africa
(like Seane Corn, my fav yoga instructor)
on LOving
LOving in as many forms as possible
teaching LOving behaviors through movement, word,
thought, prayer, meditation, song, and art
Zowey!!
sometimes i'm afraid of my dreams, like they're too big for little ole me.
but i'm willing to grow into them.
i'm willing to make a LOving space in my heart
to speak them
and feel them
and see them
process them
and tell you
and hope that it's enough
to make them real.

my first e-course!!
the 21-day LOve-fest

what are your dreams, my LOve? please share

sogladifoundyou earwear carved from clay

who are you?

2010-09-06T14:13:00.002-04:00

you might not know by looking at me that:

*i really, really want to live in a lavendar-colored houseboat (for a year)
**i'm an expert air guitar player
***i like to stand on one leg
****if i weren't a health professional, i would replace my morning oatmeal with a daily brownie
*****i'd like to co-parent 4 children of 4 different races (this, of course, after the houseboat year)

now your turn to share, please.
tell me what's inside/ what is in YOU
that
might not be known by just looking******

LOve, LOve, LOve
who you are

last night a friend asked

2010-08-23T14:24:00.006-04:00

"do you remember the poem, the invitation...?"

excerpted from Oriah MOUntain dreAMer's ThE PReLude
(written as a prelude to The InviTAtion)
What if becoming who and what we truly are happens not through striving and

trying but by recognizing and receiving the people and places and practises
that offer us the warmth of encouragement we need to unfold?
How would this shape the choices you have to make about how to spend today?

What if you knew that the impulse to move in a way that creates beauty in
the world will arise from deep within and guide you every time you simply
pay attention and wait?

How would this shape your stillness, your movement, your willingness to
follow this impulse, to just let go and dance?

ThE DAnce
( a poem to FOLLow The INvitaTIOn)
Show me how you follow your deepest desires,

spiralling down into the ache within the ache.
And I will show you how I reach inward and open outward
to feel the kiss of the Mystery, sweet lips on my own, everyday.

Don't tell me you want to hold the whole world in your heart.
Show me how you turn away from making another wrong without
abandoning yourself when you are hurt and afraid of being unloved.

Tell me a story of who you are,
And see who I am in the stories I am living.
And together we will remember that each of us always has a choice.

Don't tell me how wonderful things will be . . . some day.
Show me you can risk being completely at peace,
truly OK with the way things are right now in this moment,
and again in the next and the next and the next. . .

all i could remember was that when i first read the INvitaTion
i certainly didn't understand it experientially
NOW
i could have written it

these succulent soulpieces are shaping my current meditations

as i enter a

seasonal metamorphosis

--time of (subtle) CHanGe and adaptation

--adjustments i allow on the inside

resulting in more LOve for what IS

outside

may i invite you to read the 3 poems in entirety
the prelude, the invitation, the dance
(here's the link!-scroll down to see all the poems)
oh you'll be so inspired you did

look up

2010-08-15T21:25:00.001-04:00

this quote is soooo powerful and useful. read it twice.
whenever you have a bar, that is to say a barrier in front of you, stop,
close your eyes, visualize everything that is above
the bar and nothing that is below it, then imaginatively
throw your heart over that bar and see yourself as being
given lifting power to rise above it. Believe that
you are experiencing this upthrust of force. You will
be amazed at the lifting force you will receive. If in
the depth of your mind you visualize the best and employ
the powers of faith and energy, you will get the best.

--dr. norman vincent peale

your imagination and LOve can move mountains.
--the wanderer
go to the 21-day LOve-fest

to be quiet

2010-08-01T21:41:00.003-04:00

i am quite healthy. i actually boast about not getting sick,
you know i don't get the full-blown, out-right sickness sick
like you-can't-go-to-work sick. but the week
before my 42nd bday (approx 15 days ago/ exactly)
i started to lose my voice. my voice is my work and
it is my memory.
my work: i teach 10.5 hrs of kid's classes
7.5 hours of yoga
7 hours of fitness classes per week (lots of VOICE)
my memory: when a former vocalist starts to feel hoarse it triggers a
(mostly paranoid) fear of permanent vocal loss.

my temporary vocal challenge was really
an energetic nudge
suggesting that i examine how i was communicating
sure i was expending the instrument teaching for hours (that's typical usage for me)
my tired voice was pressuring me to shut-up for a while
to rest
take it easy
so i did
but not until after the extravagant thursday eve (july 22/ my bday)☀

for my bday gift i honored myself with 2 days of near-silence
speaking only when necessary
i camped on my floor and watched movies with mr. porter, wrapped jewelry,
rode my bicycle, stared at boats on the hudson,
observed my thoughts.

in that time it occurred:
☞i feel depleted because i'm trying too hard explain myself
☞i raise my volume in hopes to better communicate when i feel others aren't listening
biggest realization:
☞these feelings arise in my personal life more than in my work!

silence enabled me to hear the truth
i communicated this truth to my peeps/ my voice cleared
i broke the silence on the beautiful sunday with a surprise invite to re-connect with a friend over a quiet, peaceful dinner
and
i sung my way without force through an even busier than
normal week of teaching ♥ gift from surrendering to silence

the 4 is not an accident

2010-07-06T00:17:00.002-04:00

i'm on a dating site and a 25 year old man asks
if i might actually be 22
did i hit the 4 by accident
sweet sunshine, i LOve my 40s
hair = silver and black
my smile = knowing
health = impeccable
awareness = always a student of all that i teach
celebrating age and wisdom with YOU

U know
THEY keep sayin' it gets better
THEY R right
getting older = holla (yes) 42 in 2 weeks / i don't resist
this journey is giving me so much to shine about

k. so
as you read in last week's post
i wanna celebrate my dream w/ u
and giveaway my gifts
post a comment and if i draw your name
im gonna give you this pebblewear jewel

creativelightwithin, u rock my world

pebblewear neckwear::handcarvedclaypendantandbeadfusedgreenglassonrustic
redleathercordcopperspringclasp
called::poisedharmony

2010-07-06T00:16:00.001-04:00

➷the winner of my bday give-away from june 28!

i drew a name from the posted comments
from last last monday's blogpost
{only 2 comments last week/one anonymous and me!}
and the winner of my cd
meditationsandmore is:
kelly from LOve is my religion blog

☀

dream gifts for u

2010-06-28T15:36:00.001-04:00

last tuesday i started the 30-day countdown to my birthday
i LOve my
birth/day
a dreamer was born on july 22
me
so to celebrate my dreams i want to give my gifts to you
each monday till my b/day i will offer a new giftgive-away

leave a comment on this post and YOU
will be entered in a drawing to receive my
NEW MeditaTion CD
meditationsandmore
(listen to a sample)
i will announce the winner next monday!
i will announce another giftgive-away next monday, also!

and
the 21-day LOve-fest is available for download
NOW
visit the 21-day LOve-fest here
and it's free for a limited time
what is a LOve-fest?
i wrote a 21-day action process
that allows YOU to magnetize
LOve to your life experience
click here (tell me more!! ) to learn more

big b/day dreams are coming true
creativeinspiration, you rock my world

the inside view of beyond illusion awheelthrownthenalteredrockbowl
-rock bowl sold yesterday to a LOvelyartistsoul @ the
NYC 2010 Uptown Arts Stroll

sun stand still

2010-06-21T13:36:00.003-04:00

oh divinelight
of the sky
sweet potentsun stand
still
today
that i may behold your
magnificence
and power to increase my
harvest
i lift my head/close eyes/fling arms-wide
that you may
pour
your ever-radiantheat
upon me
this/day
i let you
dry up and burn away
that which is deceased
and
give magicfirepower
to the new crop growing within

*LOve letter to the sun
june 21, 2010

i think often of changing my name.
~~michelle~~
summyr pronounced summer
i can embody this name: summyr
or maybe
i just want a change in general

the dead/ line

2010-06-14T13:34:00.003-04:00

hey my creative free-flyingfriends--my dear readers
i have to confess to you
one of the more challenging aspects of
working for mySelf is:
setting/
no not setting
but MEETING self-imposed deadlines
perhaps you can relate? im not alone in this
am i?

normally
i arrive on time or early to meetings/
i finished major papers in grad school
3 days ahead of time (my friends
really thought i was a freak of nature for that)
actually
i LOve LOve LOve deadlines set by the powers
that be in POWER when i work for someone else
because im attracted to structure

why all this about deadlines?
my meditation cds and
my LOve-fest e-course
remember in
past posts
i wrote that my cds would be ready last week...
okay---one of them is ready!!! YIPPIE!!!
go to here to hear a sample and purchase
however
im still working on two others (im taking deep breaths)

and the 21-day LOve-fest is
READY
for you to download
ive been promising it to myself and mentioning it to you
since february (deep breathing)
go here and get it, LOvebird

im working to build more structure in my
self-designed empowerment work
keeping my deadlines
*without feeding the urge to dilly-dally and self-sabotage my creative projects (out of fear)
*working on my projects with faith and PLEASURE
*without critic---sizing mySELF and TRYing to be PerFEct
*BUT creating with deep breathing
and LOve for my process
even if im a few days or weeks late

i'm-a big boy/ i'm 4

2010-06-07T13:34:00.008-04:00

i've gotta give it up for my

zen master pup, mr. porter (just turned 4)

named after the bodybuilder,
porter catrell (a top ten mr. Olympian several years ago)
only because i like the name porter (and i was a bodybuilder from 2000-2002)
my pup is hardly a "meathead" though
this pup has strength i strive to embody-

mr. porter/ unmmoved by outer conditions:

when others ask oh, is he too hot

well, he seems to be fine, happy actually--he spralls four-legged flat
on a 90 degree sidewalk
waiting for folks to come by and greet him--
same deal when it's 30 degrees/ belly on the earth-smile on his puppy face
eager to lick and wag at passerbys
and in rain
when i want to go back inside
he's looking for people and dog faces

mr. porter/ considerate:
children pull his ears (they don't know)
mr. porter doesn't react --keeps licking/
on the airplane
(under the seat in front of me)
he flies without medication-
only needs a "shhh, baby... i love you"/
i told him at 5 months old
no bark in the morning to get me up, you'll wake the neighbors
so he grrrrs instead, underbite protruding around his tight black lips

mr. porter, my model
of
ease
my dog
of compassion

you are a big boy
and
i wanna grow
up
just
like you

meditation CDs coming

2010-06-02T16:12:00.000-04:00

alright my sweets...
i'm-a (still) workin' on these here meditation CDs
this week
and-a you will be able to purchase 'em
by monday (yeah!!)
gosh, i sure am feelin' good about 'em
(spent a couple-a days in louisville-KY last weekend,
if you were wonderin')

visit my website to listen
hope you enjoy

making pebblewear

2010-05-24T15:10:00.011-04:00

here are my pieces in stages :: the rock vessels are wheelthrown
as "closed" forms (no hole). then i pound them on a table to give
them shape. when the clay is "cheese hard", i carve out the hole
and etch texture into the skin, fire, glaze, and fire again.

i carve the jewels in bulk, usually visiting them over a 2-week
span until i like the weight, shape, and texture.
then fire, glaze, fire again, THEN home they go to be
joined with wire, beads, handmade beads, ribbon, rock,
and/or cord!

pebblewear jewels of hand and earth
why pebblewear?
my empowerment company is called pebble.
my rock jewelry + vessels are created the same way we are made into jewels ::
with compression, re-shaping, patience, fire, color

2010-05-17T13:15:00.008-04:00

shout/out time, baby.
i wish to thank you ALL -ever so sweetly- for stopping by to read me as often as you do
and for visiting my picture journal @
www.thewanderingpebble2.blogspot.com
                      take a read of my favorite weblogs
        find the list as you scroll down on the right panel

these kindredartistspirits
light my fire
with their art and magic
And check my website to listen
   to my new meditation CD preview
available for purchase in JuNe
www.aboutpebble.com
thanks, you sacred jewels!!!!

2010-05-10T13:46:00.002-04:00

“We shape clay into a pot, but it is the emptiness inside that holds whatever we want.” -Tao Te Ching

wheelthrownthenalteredclayform

so much to learn from looking at a rock

wisdom of the wanderer

2010-05-03T14:00:00.003-04:00

my credo ::
1      there is no perfection, there is balance

2      let the teacher within have the final word

3      too much information isn't always good for you

4      never stop believing in miracles

5      let your heartbe your compass/trueLOve is magnetic

i dont condemn, i dont convert
this is the callin - have you heard?
bring all the LOvers to the fold
no one is gonna lose their soul
all my days i been searchin
to find out what this life is worth
through the books ive looked
through time ive searched
LOve is my religion
all we need is LOve
excerpt from LOve is my religion
--song by ZIggY MaRley (acoustic version is hot)
--also a blog title of my soulfriendartistkindred (click on title to check her blog)

rainy, windy day

2010-04-26T17:04:00.001-04:00

in a cafe
needing a touch, a hug, a word i can trust
needing to hear from
the wind,
an invisible power that knows/
knows to blow and move all nature
into its proper position,
knows to blow and prepare nature
for what is to come soon
(i need to hear)

see
don't look around.
look within.

but
if you do look around,
give LOve-thoughts to all you see.

choose
if you choose THis and not THat,
only contemplate THis.

POWer
use power not force.
LOve is your power.

try not to fear your hard times.
these times are probably increasing your power.

41.99

2010-04-19T15:58:00.004-04:00

we're not expecting a
full moon till next weekend
so
maybe it's because the planet
is spinning backward/ or something like that
with mercury and all/
could explain my quiet,
contemplative sunday afternoon---
yesterday i sat on my
sofa thinking/almost all day
---i am
41.99 years old+grey hair i wont dye+
single+dating+doing what i love to make money in a city with teeth
and appetite.
thought=
though it took me 4 bloody years,
i embrace the beauty of my autumn-like
hair, changing silver with the shift of life season.
thought=
though 3 years ago i quit my dept of education job with a bit of trepidation,
this city isn't chewing on me/more like smiling really
thought=
gee, i welcome my illuminating experiences of meeting
matureage menspirits with whom i can grow to
know slowly
patiently
honorably
without the pressureanddesperation of my youth that rushed
me into forcingLOve
'cause i oughtta be married by now
thought=
i define this act/ life
i am as i feel/
i am as i choose to BE
thought=
it (this 41.99 life) feels so much better
NOW

silver lining

2010-04-19T14:25:00.001-04:00

kittie howard, one of my fellow LOve-bearers,
has honored the wanderer weblog with the
silver lining award!
may stars shine on her path.
please visit her weblog,
the block,
where you'll meet this bright
spirit and travel with the others
she has honored as well.
hey kittie, thank you, sweet pea!